Apart again

I suppose we should be getting used to this now – spending three fantastic weeks together and then having to be apart – but it never gets easier, and I think it gets harder. Steph and I had a wonderful Easter break together, as she recovered from surgery, and we managed to get lots of wedding things sorted out as well as fitting in a quick trip to Vegas (more on that later). She’s pretty much better now although still suffering if she does too much, so we’ve still been trying to keep things easy, which is pretty hard when there’s lots to do!

So yesterday I had to leave; the drive up to Cincinnati is always so difficult as I feel as though I’m making every moment with Steph last, but at the same time there’s this horrible, sick feeling in my stomach when I think about how we have to be apart. I spent about 5 hours in the airport before the flight yesterday as Stephanie had to get back to Richmond for her class, and it felt pretty lonely. I read books and talked to a girl I met on the same flight (I think I bored her actually, as I only really talked about Steph and the weddings – am I becoming one of those people? On the other hand, do I care?!).

Leaving someone you love is a bit like dealing with grief, I think. First, you feel sad and a big sense of unfairness when you know this incredibly important person is being taken away from you, even for a short time. Then you get pragmatic and simply accept that things have to be the way they are. After a while you get angry, and that’s where we are now. I got home 5 hours ago, had a bath, and slept for a while before calling Steph (who was on her way into work for a really busy time) to see how she was doing. Pretty much the same as me, it turns out. So I’m grumpy at the moment, and tired, and jetlagged, which makes for one bad person to be around right now! Tomorrow I have to get up and go to a rehearsal and tonight my flatmate has friends round for dinner, so I think I’ll hide out in my room for a bit and then try to sleep more later.

First problem is that the flat has gone wireless since I was last here and I can’t work out how to connect to the network so not sure when this’ll get online…..

It's 7.30 and I've now managed it - time to post!